Currently Listening Believe By Disturbed Prayer see related

*sighs* Yes, another emo ranting entry.

What is it with people and digging into my past? Why can't people let the past be the past and let me move on? I mean, obviously, I don't talk about my past for a reason. And what's worse is when they do find about about my past they're all 'OMG hunny! I'm so sorry you had to go through all that!' Ya' know what? I really REALLY don't care! What happened happened, leave it alone!

Also, why do people automatically assume that if you have Satanic symboles and a book on Satanism in your bookbag that you are Satanist? In one of my classes, someone had gotten into my bookbag, and I had a book on Satanism and some Satanic symboles drawn out on a sheet of paper in my bookbag. Not because I want to practice Satanism, but because I have a friend that does, and I wanted to read more on it to figure out what he had really gotten himself into. And the Satanic symboles drawn on paper? Those were symboles I'd seen in his room and I drew so I wouldn't forget what they looked like so I could see what they mean, but does anyone believe me? No. They assume because I wear a lot of black and am 'gothic' that I'm now a Satanist! Some people are so close minded.

Oh, and another thing. I'm bi. Yeah. I'm bi, and I don't really care what other people think, but oh, my so called mum and my step dad seem to think that people who are bi/gay/lesbian are bad people! So, now I have a choice...tell my parents that I'm bisexual and risk getting kicked out of my house, or don't tell them and risk them finding out anyways and get myself kicked out of the house...oh yeah...great parents huh?

Anyways...fine...whatever...people suck. That's my conclusion.

Currently Listening Comalies By Lacuna Coil Heavan's a Lie see related

What do you do when the one you love isn't around anymore? When they promised you that they'd never leave you, always be there, but now when you try to get ahold of them, they won't answer your calls, even if you're crying when you leave your message? It's as if he isn't alive anymore. And when I do get ahold of him, I tell him how I feel, and he gets upset and says that I'm lying to him. That I don't call him. I've even asked him to stop telling me that he loves me because he has a girlfriend and it hurts when he says it, but he refuses to stop saying it...it just...it hurts so bad. What's worse is that I feel like this is all my fault...we haven't gone out since June...and it was I that broke up with him...because I was scared...scared of a feeling I didn't understand but now do. And I lost my chance with him, yet he insists on saying he loves me! Why does he do this?!

Currently Listening Coin Operated Boy By Dresden Dolls Coin Operated Boy see related

My first Xanga post. How exciting! Not really. What to say what to say? I really don't have anything other than I'm not in the best of moods right now due to some backstabbing, but whatever. That's life, right? Normally, I'm actually a pretty friendly person, though right now, I might come off as a bit hostile. Don't let it fool you. Well...seeing as I have to sign off of the internet here in a couple minutes and I have nothing to really say right now, I shall be going.